I have so much to say but I rather not say anything because I know that it's not going to change anything. I don't even know where to start. Life is good so far so why can't I just enjoy it and stop whining ? Because I am greedy and I hate it.
I know that I'm happy with everything that's going on in my life now but then there's this sour feeling. This awful feeling that's always there, I fight so hard to ignore & to hide it at the back of my mind but it's just too strong.
I don't ask much really, all I want is to be able to enjoy a day with nothing to worry about. Maybe because I'm a worried wart so ya worrying is like my part time job but it's so hard not to worry anything at all. I get nervous and anxious when I'm outside or in the crowd. I feel safe when I'm alone in a room best if it's dark, I think I'm not normal. I need some music, coffee and some eye shut.
Actually I have more packing and mopping to do so ya happy 11:36PM.
