I need more time so please be patient with me. My head is dead but my heart is awake, I feel things more often nowadays then I think. I stare into space very often and my soul was at another part of the world I wish I could be. Part of me is happy but part of me is not, I know what I want in life but it's not under my control anymore. Don't put your hopes high on me because I'll only disappoint. Plans never ever work out for me so I'll always expect the unexpected.
This is me now, maybe it's apart of growing but I wish I was the me then. I don't want to have anything to worry or care about but this is reality. I'm 19 I should be doing my best to help but the pressure is too strong I feel that I might collapse. It'll be nice if you appreciate me but I wish I was better than your friend's daughter. I'll never be and that is a fact. Each day I tell myself I'm stronger than this but deep down I know I'm breaking. The cracks are obvious but you couldn't see.
Life is hard for me but I still love it because of the people around me, I just wish it wouldn't be so hush on me.
