All I really am is a selfish bitch that deserve a slap hard on my face for not cherishing what I already have.
I'm not trying hard enough. I complain too much. Nothing goes right as long as it's linking to me. Life can never be as simple as I want it to be. I'm the worst and the last person anyone would want to meet. I'm a very complicated person and it's times like this i get lost in my own thoughts debating what's right and what's wrong.
I haven been sleeping and I've been thinking a lot. This strange feeling is back again I need a way out. How i wish you were here right now hugging me telling me everything is going to be ok as I break down. With you is the only time i feel safe and right but I know you can't always be here for me even if you want to. Nobody can.
I'm trying my best constantly to improve myself to deserve you but I feel like a total failure. I can never do anything right, the only thing i'm good at is screwing up every single thing I have on hand/come in-touch with. The negative is always louder than the positive in my head, always.
