Time pass so fast it's already day 12 of year 2013. I feel like I've been in a coma for a long time until I look at the date today.. I want to wish my sister Happy 22nd birthday once again!
I was telling Cal yesterday that my blog is always about him like i've nothing else going on in my life but to be honest I like it this way. I rather keep all those drama out of my blog because if I were to blog about those I think I can start writing a series of book lol. Life isn't as simple as we think.
So it's 2013, I've decided to make it my year since it adds up to 6 and that's my core number (LOL FENG SHUI INFLUENCED). I figured it's time I do something for myself and not just for others. To prove to those that look down on me and show them I'm not just a little girl. Hate the fact that people like to judge my capability by my height and size. I might be petite but I'm more than just that.
Work is harder than I expected. I'm really drained out from the 10 hours shifts and to face people who doubt me when something go wrong. I don't expect people to trust me but when people make judgements too quickly about something you didn't do & give you 'warning' to avoid the same thing from happening again, that I cannot tolerate. I can never understand people who can't accept the truth/fact about something or someone. Just because I see clearer so I'm the bad guy for informing about it. That's me 'bad stabbing'? Ok then at least I'm honest and I've nothing to be sorry for. Would still do the same if you gave me a choice to do it all over again.
I rather giving up our friendship than to be someone you think I should be because tbh you don't know me.
Thankful for people around me, those that stick around, accepting me for who I am and those that never once doubt me. I'm willing to do anything for people that I love openly or secretly it doesn't matter but honestly sadly not a lot stayed. I'm grateful for what I have today, all those shit that happened to me made me stronger & more independent and a better person. I know I'm never not good enough for anyone but you know what, I've no more fucks to give. Life will be better if I care less.
