When will this feeling ever go away..?
Sometimes I miss you so much so badly I feel the tight aching feeling in my chest I can hardly breathe. I feel the tears in my eyes but everyday I'm fighting hard to not let it show. I'm sad and tired but I'm still fighting this war with you because we're in this together and I know it's all worth it.
With you I feel safe and secure, everything around feels less important and life suddenly seem so wonderful. Your voice chase all the thoughts in my head away and that's the only time my headache is 'cured'. With you is the only time I feel like I exist, that I'm important and that me along with all my efforts is being appreciate.
I know I don't ever show much when I'm with you but I mean it when I say that I love you. I'm holding back as much as possible because I'm an emotional freak, I don't want to end up breaking down in front of you because I cannot express how much you mean to me. I want you healthy, well and happy. You deserve so much more but somehow because of me you're suffering.
I'm very grateful to have you in my life and everyday i pray for the same thing. For you to be safe, healthy and happy. I hope you'll get enough rest and have more time to eat in camp my dear boy. I'll see you very soon again if everything turns out well. Good night xoxo
