Today will be another busy day at work, have a lot to be done which is why I'm excited. I need time to pass by faster, I need lots of work to do I need to keep myself busy. I need to be too busy to think of cal, I need more work to do so I will stop counting the amount of days left to see him.. Painful but worth it.
I feel like my body is breaking apart but I believe I'm stronger than this. Falling I'll in the first month of work just shows how weak I actually am. I think my headache decided to stay and he invited flu along so ya I guess they're staying long term.
2 more days and I'll be able to rest, 12 more days to pay day and 17 more days till you're back. I sound like a girl with no life but that's because Cal's away. I hope he still gets his ice cream every Tuesday in camp haha, ice cream is the cure for sadness and loneliness.
Isit normal to feel heartbroken when your love ones are away? The feeling when you feel your heart is being crashed and that you can hardly breath. Your chest hurts so badly it almost feels like you're getting a heartattack, you blank out when you're alone, you smile to yourself when thinking of the memories you both had and then you feel empty throughout the day. Everyday is a cycle, a struggle, a day closer to you..
Today will be a better day Eunice.
