Today was a good start of September even though I woke up way too early than I should and couldn't get back to sleep after that as usual.. Woke up with a text by Cal and boy i was so excited, i can't believe the fact that the horrible 2 weeks have passed and I'll be able to see him!!!
I know it's just 2 weeks so what's the big deal about it but let me explain it's not as easy as it seems to be and I really felt like it's taking forever. I have the tendency to overreact when he's away and when it's almost 'the time of the month'. Valid reason I say.
Today was great, listening to him talk about how his poor swollen nose got injured from camp, watch him smile and eat the buns I steamed (one for each of us) as he happily ate both lol. Watching him is actually the best part of the day during our dates, he's just so... different. Ok rephrase, more of like my kind of perfect.
Every time when I'm with Cal this bitchy-childish side of me never fails to show but him being so incredibly sweet as always is nice and patience enough to tolerate my nonsense, he even tried ways to make me smile ^^ At the end of the day I always learn something new from him eg. ways to make myself a better person or ways to live happier. It's quite obvious I put him as the main key of happiness in life and i depend on him a lot but I know he can't always be there for me and I shouldn't rely on him so much. I feel like I'm a ticking bomb he shouldn't had carried but at the same time I'm too selfish to let him go.
With all the good luck kisses I'm very sure this month will be a very good start and a good one! Well at least for him I hope! I'm actually very thankful for the fact that someone so great/awesome/sweet like Cal would fall for someone like me. If this month still stink for me then so be it, I'm sure there are ways to fish some positive luck over haha.
I'm sorry this is a really long and cheesy post but if you're reading this it means you've read all that above and I'm very thankful you did because if I were you I might just skip that whole essay and go eat some grapes and have coffee or tea. Either one is great because I'm freezing right now and am craving for grapes.. .___.
It's 04:38AM I'm very very very extremely tired but not sleepy. Yet. I shall go roll in bed and eventually I'll fall asleep.. B-tee-double-U, Good morning :3
